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bismilllah. inshaAllah, lepas habis penggal ni, i'll be resigning from secretariat. ramai yg tny kenapa? some even presumed that i decided to resign just because sy terasa dgn mereka yg menyuruh sy mengambil tempat mpp utk penggal berikutnya which i refused to be. but thats totally nottttt the reason whyyy i choose to quit. tk terasa sgt though. sbb study? well. partly yes. tp teringat one time tu. masa busy dgn secretariat masa part 2, perna gak terpk nak sambung jd secky ke tk utk next term. n i was thinking (bkn bernazar): kalau dlm pd busy2 tu, Allah still kasi excellent results, igt nak sambung je jadi secretariat. dpt la berbakti sikit dkt uni ni. hue. and alhamdulillah, result utk part 2 amat gratifying. thus, study bknlah major reason. but to be an mpp, that's definitely not my goal. i realized that, yes, sesungguhnya dlm jiwa setiap Muslim, haruslah ada sifat pemimpin. lg2 plk bila kte sedar yg ada kepincangan dlm kepimpinan utk skrg ni, kte kena ada rasa n usaha utk mengubahnya. n i also realized that bila seseorang tu memegang tanggungjawab sbg seorang pemimping, lebih mudah utk seseorang itu berdakwah. dan tanggungjawab tu bkn atas dasar jawatan, tp amanah yg akan disoal dkt akhirat kelak n masa tu mulut semua dah dikunci. thus, i believe, to be an mpp, org itu perlulah kuat jiwanya. in the sense that imannya tk blh mcm santan. senang larut tk kira apa environment. tp kena kuat mcm baju kalis peluru yg nak menepis peluru2. dan sy tk rasa sy dah capai tahap tu. hue.

how i wish my maresmart friends were taking medicine here in uitm instead of studying abroad. cuz i wish that the islamic environment that i've experienced in taiping dpt dihidupkan di uitm ni or at least dlm medic uitm. teringat dkt taiping dulu, benda2 sunat mcm solat dhuha, puasa isnin khamis, etcetc dah jadi mcm benda yg common. pakai handsox pun almost everyone pakai though tade sape suruh. i miss that environment. n i can say that bila ada environment yg mcm tu, rasa nak be part of those ppl yg amalkan perkara sunat for instance sangat mudah. n i want my medic friends in uitm, dpt merasa nikmat yg sy rasa dkt taiping dulu. n tis one of the reasons why, i have quite high expectations in the new mpp.

menyedari byk dlm diri yg perlu diperbaiki, i choose to resign from secretariat. dgn harapan masa yg ada dpt dimanfaatkan utk menguatkan jiwa ni. tanak lagi korbankan masa usrah n tadarus, utk meetinggg. hue. and alhamdulillah, the rest of the secretariat terima dgn my decision to quit. juga sedar bahawa, dgn menyandarkan alasan utk memperbaiki diri sendiri, i'm responsible for what i've said. tp ada jugak kata, kalau masa lapang, kita akan jadi malas. Allah akan uji. tp yeah, ika kata, mari keluar dr kepompong selesa. may Allah make it easy for myself. dan moga Allah redha dgn pilihan ini. allahumma a'inni 'ala zikrika wa shukrika wa husni 'ibadatik. ameen.

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